she closed the door behind her as he smiled at her entrance. she managed a weary smile in return.
so why am i here?
he held her gave and sighed.
i want you here
and what about what i want?
and what is it you want?
she crossed the room to the bed in 3 tentative steps. reaching out she took his hand in hers and perchd herself on the white linen.
i dont want to share you... thats what i want
he opened his mouth to say something, but the look on her face silenced him.
this situation isnt new to me. but that doesnt mean i can handle it any better. and im not prepared to do it again, so you need to sort yourself out or lose my number cause it doesnt matter how i feel about you i will walk away if you cant give me what i need.
shed swear she could see his brain ticking over. his brow was furrowed and his eyes had that far away look he got when he was thinking of her.
and i need to know that you need me in your life... that im not just there for distraction
are you kidding me? ive been right with you since that first night.
but not wholly. there was distance there.. i could feel it.
sure i was weary. considering what youd just been through do you blame me? was i suppose to scoop you up in my arms and deliver you from all the badnes? is that what you wanted from me?
i want you to help me forget. i tried to do it alone but i cant. i want someone i love to help me
she couldnt suppress the smile forming on her lips. and answering the question before she spoke it he reached out touching her face with his fingers.
i do love you. i ahve since i left.. well before i left
and thats why you left?
youre an idiot you know that?
yeah i know it
she stood up and walked over to the window. the sky had closed in and she could see the threat of rain. she hoped it would rain. he watched her waiting for an answer, though he hadnt asked a question, not specifically anyway. after a few minutes she turned to face him.
i want you to move to LA. if we have any chance we need to be in the same city
can you wait til i get discharged?
Now what we have to understand is that this comes from an extremely clever and skillful program, that has manipulated us into ways of thinking that may be contrary to our own interests, but beneficial to the interests of the powers that be... beneficial to the interests of those who control our lives, and tax us until we have hardly a penny left to spend, take our money, and plough it into the creation of huge, armed bureaucracies, which exist to oppress us. We live in a society today where we may not make decisions, to explore our own consciousness. If I am not sovereign over my own consciousness, then I am sovereign over nothing.