when i...

[catefrances]

its you, you know
it always has been
your absence holds a dagger
against my skin...
... and i cant breathe
i long for your presence
so much it aches
and admitting that truth
makes me a liar to myself
... to my lover
but not to what i feel right now
... and all i ever will.

[catefrances]

standing at the kitchen sink, her gloved arms halfway to the elbow deep in suds, the perfume of jasmine wafts through the open window. its a clear blue late winters day... almost spring. the warmth envelopes her and she knows this is the turn of the seasons. the days are longer, the sun brighter, her mood lifting. she cant wait to be out there amongst it. documenting what catches her eye. watching the toddlermonster as she nears her first day of school. in a few weeks itll be 5 years since she arrived and the pleasure of watching this little person grow is endless. she has spirit and spunk and the words to express everything around her in her child wonder. everything is rainbows and polarbears and unicorns. her boundless enthusiasm for the life around her sometimes has her lost for the words to express the thoughts crowding her little head. she wants to be heard. she wants to be seen. she wants to sing and to dance and be given and to give squeezy hugs. her name is piper and she is my grand daughter.

[rollings]

.......a dagger
against my skin...
... and i cant breathe

holy

I know that feeling,
that is the description of it

and your descrition of your granddaughter (never'd've thunk it )
was very fun to read
piper is an awesome name I think. never heard of it before

[tremors]

standing at the kitchen sink, her gloved arms halfway to the elbow deep in suds, the perfume of jasmine wafts through the open window. its a clear blue late winters day... almost spring. the warmth envelopes her and she knows this is the turn of the seasons. the days are longer, the sun brighter, her mood lifting. she cant wait to be out there amongst it. documenting what catches her eye. watching the toddlermonster as she nears her first day of school. in a few weeks itll be 5 years since she arrived and the pleasure of watching this little person grow is endless. she has spirit and spunk and the words to express everything around her in her child wonder. everything is rainbows and polarbears and unicorns. her boundless enthusiasm for the life around her sometimes has her lost for the words to express the thoughts crowding her little head. she wants to be heard. she wants to be seen. she wants to sing and to dance and be given and to give squeezy hugs. her name is piper and she is my grand daughter.

wonderful most moving writing

[catefrances]

thanx dang. thanx tremors.

[justam]

standing at the kitchen sink, her gloved arms halfway to the elbow deep in suds, the perfume of jasmine wafts through the open window. its a clear blue late winters day... almost spring. the warmth envelopes her and she knows this is the turn of the seasons. the days are longer, the sun brighter, her mood lifting. she cant wait to be out there amongst it. documenting what catches her eye. watching the toddlermonster as she nears her first day of school. in a few weeks itll be 5 years since she arrived and the pleasure of watching this little person grow is endless. she has spirit and spunk and the words to express everything around her in her child wonder. everything is rainbows and polarbears and unicorns. her boundless enthusiasm for the life around her sometimes has her lost for the words to express the thoughts crowding her little head. she wants to be heard. she wants to be seen. she wants to sing and to dance and be given and to give squeezy hugs. her name is piper and she is my grand daughter.

[catefrances]

i hate that youre inside my head
i hate that youre not here
i hate that i feel what i do
i hate the need to distract me with others
i hate a desire so strong
i hate all the anger built up
i hate that i hate all of the above

[catefrances]

when he asked she said
its what she always did
looking him straight in the eye
with not so much as a twitch
or hesitation to question

when she asked he said
its as he expected
getting to know her as he was
sometimes he forgot
but then she smiled
and he knew it was beyond her

deception was a weakness
but it wasnt her weakness

he had to admit
sometimes her truth made it difficult
but again...
that was his weakness,
not hers.

[catefrances]

i can always tell
when its time for bed
my thoughts wander to you
and ive run out of booze
to drown the noise
but just cause its time for bed
doesnt mean ill be getting any sleep

[catefrances]

i need to go home
to find out if
what im feeling is real
or if its just
the distance weighing
heavy on me.

[catefrances]

he watches them from a distance
the easy laughter and gentle touches
the way she looks when theyre together
this is the one, she tells him all the time
but when she is alone he knows
what she refuses to admit to herself

the wind glues her dress against her body
and breath he does not have catches in his throat
her hair out of control as she fights to regain it
the man reaches out drawing her close
brushes the hair from her face
kisses her lips and speaks

he knows what is being said
and she never wants to hear it
she clings to the man willing him to stay
he cant he tells her, she knows better
tears fill her eyes and she loses her strength

he sighs a slight smile
he knows the man has faults, but
just like she says, he is the one
and she will never let go of that
even when she lets him go

he looks up at the sky
it grows darker and the clouds close in
the first drops see him indoors
and just like her, he will wait.

[chadwick]

you are a gift, cate
i am grateful that you are who you are and share your poetry with us. i also enjoy your works outside these poetic walls here in the creative writing area.

be well.

[catefrances]

thanks chad.. i havent been feeling much like writing lately.. but i think the time has come to push past the mental lethargy. i need to be more disciplined.. and thats not really my thing.

[justam]

We like to read what you put up cate. Does that help?

[catefrances]

We like to read what you put up cate. Does that help?

no... its an internal thing. and thank you.